SWEET SADNESS

SWEET SADNESS

It was my first day in college.

The thought about the new world was not in me, but the memories of my school life were shining.

I have left my friends back, who were with me for past 12 years or more, who I thought know me than myself. My world was concentrated to small part.

    Now college, I am going to enter a strange world, where even I don’t know what will happen to myself. I kept my first step in college with right foot, stepped with a smile, but my heart was feeling as heavy as a big stone has kept on it.

Many thoughts were going through my mind; it’s all about my future, what I would be at the end of this college life, maybe I am a Stanger here at end of my course holding the certificate.

   It’s always the tendency of human being to understand what he doesn’t know. I felt everyone was having many abilities than me. There was something holding me from talking to the strange people, may be it’s my shyness or maybe it’s my ego.

                         I started with a small smile which had a lot of fear hidden inside, don’t know what to talk and on which subject.

Earlier I used to talk about nothingness, not knowing the meaning, not even caring about anything, things have changed, I cared about what strangers would feel about my being. May be the memories of strangers and me took us to the world of togetherness, separation and mixture of all feelings.

I searched for the reason of togetherness but found myself bond with a new relationship; don’t know what name should be given.

Together we laughed, cried and now realized that we were no longer strangers……

All know one other in their own way. For some I was friend and for some still unknown, some just entered and left myself alone.

The fear of exams has gone. We created reasons to celebrate, to cheer. Those small fights for nothingness were more important than anything. Relation here was touching heart fast but they were not long lasting….

Now started to make friends without even caring how long it will last, how far will it go….

   Sometimes I felt I was in a crowd and sometimes I was alone, Betrayed by everyone. Each day here was teaching a new lesson which I never understood. All talked about great things now, knowing nothing will change. We talked about changing the world to our own but were changing as the world wanted. Together we took many decision but never worked for that…..